Trapped in Time

You could have stabbed me

Blackened my eyes

My bruises would heal

But I have memories

And I have forgiven

But the fact that I haven't forgotten still destroys me

An empty space

Where was the pad lock over my heart?

Where the hell was the protection?

I paid in tears and in cash

Still it Haunts my thoughts because the pain lives in my heart

Why am I remembering what weakens me?

Long gone

Not in my presence

Yet the thought carries on

Wanting to demolish the memory

I let you get the best of me

When can I get the best of me back?

Never?

The worst pain is the one that sticks with you

The strongest adhesive

Did it make me Stronger?

Good question

You are my ruin

Half Hearted

I wish I could take back everything ever given to you

All the way down to these words

This is not regret

This is a cry for relief

This hole leaving me partially soul-less

Its 4:14 am

Right around that time I told you the stupidity that rolled off my tongue

But you never stopped me

Never said yes

But never no either

I smile

I joke

But I wish I never met you

And I mean it

The only thing you have ever given me wasn't friendship

You gave me

In a nicely wrapped box

A red bow

and a curse

I'M STILL TRAPPED IN TIME