No Trespassing Bed-Stuy

Your game is not helping you

Your mad because you want someone that doesn't want you

Just like a grimy new yorker your mind is not even on me

you just want someone to satisfy your nerve

I am a goal you cant reach

My face don't say easy

but yours damn sure says sleazy and

How can you be mad

trying to sleep with strangers and wake up with enemies?

don't try to play me

I don't want you

you step to me everyday and I put you down every time

no is no

this anit play play

Milton Bradley is not my trademark

get it through your head

stick with your wife and kids

Always after some shit you don't need and its ridiculous

I'm not your average girl so walk on by

you mad

get a grip

fall back

Funky attitude cause I wont give you any?

I don't want you!

and I never even gave you the notion that I did

so how about you collect yourself and go on about your business

what can you possibly do for me but bring drama to my world

its already filled by topics of talk shows

so do yourself a favor

and 1 yourself

No sleep til brooklyn

Eyes wide open

look left

right

up

The ceiling is blank and I am trying to clear my head in the same notion

Thoughts of anything that is really not happening in my life is running through

Cant sleep

Trying to search for my purpose

No signs

rub my eyes to clear my vision

yet a resemblance to beer goggles

awake for more than 15 hours

no life to make me tried

only complaining this to myself

a job I don't like so no need to rest for it

happiness

i stress for it

sweat, blood, tears and years to nowhere

1/3 of your life sleeping

mine less

i keep looking at the time

telling myself to lay down and close my eyes

knowing in the back of my mind that will not happen

doing anything to waste time and get the heavy eye feeling

the sun soon returns and my eyes now shut

but an alarm disturbs

another sleep less night

Journey

Never comprehending the thought of him noticing

I couldn't see how this fine specimen could have me in his eyes

Silent stares of infatuation

We grant Hi's

We pass by

Words never walking

Thoughts steady running

Pursuing me in hand

With possible drama a foot

But he drives off

And within reason we meet again

His written perspectives giving me something to think about

For those who may pity them

I for one have taken seriously

I sort of grasp his concept

I understand a bit about where he is headed with this

At times I sensed a bit of cockiness

but who am I to judge what I only view, but not know

He seems to posses a purpose

I indulge in that sort of thing

My goal?

I will question

and answer

and listen

My honesty

His Vision

Just in need of good conversation

Laughter

Smiles

All in the journey of getting to know him

I pack my bags

Daily Verse

It puts my day into perspective

I grasp confidence, knowledge, and Hope

The lines are read in swift eye movements

Words traveling to the sensors in my brain

Creating thoughts of what is happening in my life

The words circle around my drama and issues

Exhaling out in a slow heart beat of relief

Once again I am guided in the way of Prosperity

Of Peace

Taking what is read and applying it to my Happiness

Filling in the holes of my soul

The knowledge of a higher Perspective

Not looking down on us

But from within us

Even still in the ones that have lost their way

Theirs eyes glimmer hope and their hearts pump sincerity

Having witnessed what can happen

Miracles in an abundance creating a curiosity for a possible increment of disbelief

But with the impatience on waiting for miracles

Do we not know what to do or how to act when they arrive?

Even when they are present to the eyes and the heart

As tangible as the concrete and steel we live around

Yet and still resting on Doubt

But these words render a peace of mind

A reassurance that everything is going to be okay

Placing a smile over my heart

An endearing bliss over thoughts of heaven

Getting this all from what he renders it to be

My Daily Verse and what it instills in me

I'm Done With Apologies (IF YOU HATE YOUR JOB BUT YOU GOTTA PAY THE BILLS)

They seek perfection
Never really ready to hear the unique reality of shit
My apologies are never really apologies
More like a front to what truly comes to mind
And my mind
Its a danger zone
Honesty blisters from these lips
Crack & Peel
Talking about things of irrelevance
Or just some shit I don't care to hear about
My mind blurts out that I don't care about your issues
They are not as serious as mine
Having problems you need to deal with on your own
Explaining your life story
And you feel like I should give you praise and glory
Though this position was chosen
It did not choose me
But in this economy
Anit nothing going on

But The Rent
And bills

Lining up to be paid
This is the only thing I have right now to achieve that
And that is to apologize and deal with the ways of your constant bullshit
I rant
I rant and rave because people are always gimme gimme gimme
So it takes an asshole to achieve success?
Money to the mountain tops but you retain from having bliss?
So at the little shit you are pissed off at
I laugh
The palm of my hand slapping my knee
Let me play back what you just said and see if your not laughing with me
Yes stupidity and ignorance form around each word your mouth generates
And sometimes when I'm told these stories of dissatisfaction my laughter blurts out
Can they sense the sarcasm as I'm listening to them?
As they complain about the smallest things
But Trust me bigger shit is happening in my world
And the petty drama you implode has to be given an apology?
While some still mad yet displaying there is no need for apologies.
No Apology?
That's all I can offer your ungrateful ass anyway
They expect more

Like a Bed, Bath, and Beyond type of situation
But Sorry my job description is not labeled "KISS ASS AGENT"
I grace no one with my sincerest apology
They are not deserving or worthy
Because who I'm really working for ...
Its not this company

Its for me
So I do apologize for ever applying to this so called position of disgrace
I didn't realize that dealing with people is this crazy
In no way do I relate to these people and understand how they feel
Fuck their feelings
I only apologize for not saying mine
Though I would cry while standing on the Unemployment Line